Wednesday, December 3, 2008

Wishing for a Happy Post

Whew! I took a few days off. I hope you don't mind but between work and work and Thanksgiving, I took a bit of time to lounge about in bed with my addiction...books.

I needed to get lost in someone else's life for awhile because the stuff that has been happening here is really making it hard to make it through the day with out meds (remember I stopped those 6 months ago...rethinking that whole decision). Between the Kmart, WalMart and Mumbai violence I am really losing my faith in humanity. Then, I read an article today on CNN about a dog that was beaten with a hammer in an Atlanta park and left to die. It about pushed me over the edge.

Trying to focus on the positive is like when you are cooking spaghetti and you use a spoon to try to lift a couple noodles out to test it. They all fall off and you keep trying to get one and then when you finally do, you end up dropping it on the floor because it burned your mouth or your finger. It's so frustrating and then add the anger and sadness on top of that and you have a meltdown.

So far I have been able to avoid meltdowns only by fate. I will be close to the edge and then I'll see the story about the nanny that saved the toddler from the soldiers in Mumbai or I'll hear "Christmas Time is Here" from A Charlie Brown Christmas. What I find remarkable is how something so small as a song or even a few notes from a song can bring me back from the edge. Even this blog helps. As write, I see the pattern I fall into and even though I haven't figured out a way to fix it, I can at least see it. I guess that means I should be writing more instead of taking days off. ;)

19 comments:

LuLu Jamais Vu said...

I love etsy too! I shop there all the time. I try to avoid being overwhelmed by finding a vendor I like and then looking at their favorite items- kinda narrows it down a little. I just wrote a blog similar to yours a few days ago. All this violence is making me nuts. My boyfriend runs a non-profit that promotes non-violence for teenagers so we talk about it all the time. It keeps me from the edge. :)

Kelley with Amy's Angels said...

Oh my goodness...I triple love the Charlie Brown Christmas! I have (wait for it...)...the RECORD with the big picture book from 1970-something. Oh what good memories!

Judy Haley said...

some times you've just gotta do what you gotta do. I've found a media break - or break from what ever the source of toxin - can make a huge difference. Writing it out helps too though.

I've been paying non-stop christmas music on last.fm

KDLOST said...

man o man. i feel ya on the music thing and the news thing. i had to stop watching for awhile. it's just too much... watched for awhile last night and got sad again. so! i agree with you! charlie brown sometimes makes more sense than real life anyhow...

good grief.

Suburbia said...

This time of year can be really tough and then all the bad news stuff on top; it's no good for anyone. However you must remember all the good stuff being done all over the world. Sadly that doesn't hit the news so often, but if you seek it out it will warm your heart:)

Sidney (Sixy Mama) said...

I agree with KDLOST...Charlie Brown is who we should all be like...or at least that lifestyle! My neighbor and I were talking about all the violence that has recently occurred, and how people suck! Not all of us, just those select few that we seem to hear about repeatedly.

Glad you got to take a break and read...that's my respite, as well!

~Sheila~ said...

I"m sorry to hear that. It does kind of suck what with all that is going on in the world.

I think for the next days before Xmas, abcfamily (I will have to verify that for you)is putting on all kids of holiday show. The kids and I saw Snoopy Come Home the other night and we are waiting to watch Santa Claus is coming to town.

Tonight, A Christmas Story is coming on on the TNT channel.

Hope that cheers you up.

Margo said...

I'm sorry :( Feel better! I know it sucks when you feel overwhelmed and you lose your faith in humanity. It'll come back. People will react to these horrors and do kind things. People do kind things even now. But it sucks. :(

Candid Carrie said...

Hi - I've been reading you through google reader. I popped in today and first I want to say, "I love what you've done with the place."

Second, depression sucks. If you want to do the phone-a-friend during the rough patches I can cheerfully be your friend In The Real World and help you get through it.

With love from someone who has been there, but isn't there right now, Carrie

Andy said...

As a wise person once told me, don't worry about the things you can't control, and appreciate the things you can.

Sue said...

Part of not going over the edge is understanding why you are "at the edge". Good for you to figure it out! Now keep writing and no more days off! :)

Laura Ingalls Gunn said...

I think that many bloggers, myself included, will be posting and commenting a bit less right now. There is so much that needs to be done.
Good for you for recharging yourself.

BS5 Blogger said...

Hey Scargosun, just a line to send positive thoughts right across the pond! Keep happy!

Los said...

There are many, many good stories and "humanitarian" stories that unfortunately don't get written, or are not picked up by newspapers, because ... well, they're just not "entertaining" enough. Unfortunately, our society (and possibly humanity in general) tends to pay more attention to negative stuff ... but, have faith, Scargosun, good people are out there, and good things happen every day.

sheila said...

Yes, humanity needs a big fat reality check. People are nuts and mean and nasty and sick. But there's many good ones out there to try and bring some harmony. Let's hope they start reporting on those. Did you catch that new show 'Secret Millionaire?'

Mama Dawg said...

I'm always for you writing more.

But, that's just little ol' selfish me.

Humanity is a bit wee off these days.

Sarah Mae said...

Oh friend, humanity is not good. It's easy to get depressed about it, unless you understand it. That is why I find such hope in Christmas - it is when the One who redeems us is born.

Things on this earth will only get worse, but if we put our faith in Jesus, we will have a future that one day will contain no violence, tears, heartache, or evil.

I love your authenticity!

Queen Mommy said...

I love being able to write and figure it out. I know I will ultimately figure it out and sometimes just putting out of your mind truly does help.

It is truly amazing how twisted some humans can be, and yet there IS goodness too. The news constantly focuses on the horror and rarely focuses on the sublime.

Rhea said...

I'm glad blogging helps. I liked your spaghetti analogy.

I've been down lately. Lots going down here...husband falling apart, both kids sick AGAIN, money issues, etc. I'm feeling beaten down.