So, I joined a gym.
I am not completely uncoordinated. I used to rock a step class like no one's business. That was fourteen years ago. I have fallen off the elliptical in my home and I tripped over my dog last month, spraining my ankle. So getting on machines in front of people makes me nervous. I don't want to be 'that girl that fell off the tread mill' or 'that girl that fell off
Also, that complementary personal training session that gyms give you? Just annoying. Some random PT shows you around and puts you on a cookie cutter circuit and looks very disinterested while doing it. It has ALWAYS annoyed me, in every gym I have ever been to. You are doing your reps and they are looking around, maybe walking away, not at all interested in what you are doing. I always feel like I am bothering them somehow. Maybe it would be different if I was PAYING them but they could at the very least TRY to get me to pay them.
Don't even get me started on the locker room. Talk about judgment. I don't need that much info about perfect strangers and I don't give that much info to people I know.
So all in all, I already have issues with self esteem and body image. They just seem compounded when I enter a gym. I guess the only thing to do about that fear is face it. Go every day, get used to it and walk around in my too big running shorts and tee and not give it a second thought.
...I am not walking around naked in the locker room though. There is only so much judgment my thighs can take.